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If I was fat, I'd sit on all of you!!

  • Apr. 11th, 2009 at 1:10 PM
Some people have the tendency to put on weight even though their food intake is low, while some tend to remain thin and look like stick figures. There are also a microscopically small handful who can eat what they feel like and maintain a fairly well balanced coating of fat and muscle.

I'm one of those people with a high metabolic rate. Add to that, my insomnia and you have a thin guy who looks like two arms and legs made hastily out of hangar-wire.

I can't put on weight even if I really try hard to do so. :( It's NOT cool, and it's not fun. There's a stigma around the globe when it comes to fat people, but since there are so many of them (roughly 80% of the population in the more developed nations consists of the mildly obese to the super-heavy weights), they've become an un-detachable part of the world we've come to believe, surrounds us. There are so many people out there who are overweight, that they've become a staple in our daily lives. If you were to walk down the street and find no fat people, you'd do a back-flip out of sheer terror!

Being miserably thin as I am, has a different level of acceptance. Here's what I face every day.. When I leave for work in the morning, I'm usually focused upon by passers by, way longer than is considered decent. Once I get to work, he security guard says I'm thin. The receptionist who greets me with a smile and a Good morning (that sounds so terribly forced) tells me that she wished I would take some of her fat (not sure what she means, but it's gross, I know). As I take the lift to my floor, I'm usually alone, but sometimes, there's someone in the lift with me, and they invariably have those hungry eyes shimmering with restrained tears.

Once I start working in earnest, some of the companies partners and other random folk who I gotta interact with show up. This is not a thrilling time. Some have the sense to keep their vile mouths shut. But most of them can't help squealing (it literally sounds like a squeal!!) "Gosh! You're so thin!! You should put on some weight! Don't you eat any food at all? Eat something.. Have bananas and milk..". They have no idea how damn out-casted I feel when they do that. Even people on the over-heavy side do it without caring a rats ass about how I would feel. For gods sake, I hardly even know them!

If I saw a fat guy and went around telling them in a high pitched whine "Gosh! You're so fat!! Why don't you just stop eating!", I'd probably lose my job within a few minutes at most.

That's weight discrimination. :( And I hate it. I'm not complaining so much as letting fly a random rant though. :) I have met some amazing people. Some of them BIG, some of them small. Some of them huge, and less than a handful of the thin.

Why don't people get it? Fat or thin, they're people right!! Right??

They're gonna hate me for this one. :) Hehe!




sepiaverse wrote:
Apr. 11th, 2009 12:52 pm (UTC)
i know what you mean :) it's kind of like the reaction people have when they see my palms and feet...

the trick is to not let it affect one's self-image :P
subtle_blues wrote:
Apr. 11th, 2009 01:49 pm (UTC)
It's funny how we say 'self-image' or 'self-esteem' when they are obviously so influenced by what others think of us. It takes a great deal of resilience and years of mental struggle to actually come unstuck from that 'non-self made image'.
sepiaverse wrote:
Apr. 11th, 2009 02:27 pm (UTC)
that was kinda my point too.. :) i just did not want to talk in long sentences - weekend effect i guess..but ya, conditioning has a self re-inforcing mechanism to it. struggle does nothing but affirm the same along a different vector, but to escape it all is a non-possibility.

Edited at 2009-04-11 02:28 pm (UTC)
angiasaa wrote:
Apr. 11th, 2009 06:08 pm (UTC)
:) Do they ask you why they're so small and that you ought to do something to fix them? I for one think it's not as much of an irritant. But then again, as with everything else, we evaluate stuff based on the limits of our experiences in life.

It does not affect my self image as such. But it does make me feel bad that people just won't shut up. I wish I was fat for the rest of my life just so these people would shut up and let me live my life like so many others are permitted to do.
sepiaverse wrote:
Apr. 11th, 2009 06:17 pm (UTC)
it is..and well, you being on the other side, won't notice the irritation i presume :) it was a light-hearted comparison anyway.

and great, if it doesn't, you've got the trick then!

p.s. - people never shut up.
angiasaa wrote:
Apr. 11th, 2009 06:36 pm (UTC)
Actually, I did. But it was the act of pointing it out that brought on the image. :)

I'm not sure that's totally accurate though.. When it comes to this subject, my self-image takes no beating. But though I can't think of an example of something else offhand, but I'm sure I'm not perfect on that front.

p.s.: Sometimes, they do.
sepiaverse wrote:
Apr. 11th, 2009 06:53 pm (UTC)
k :)

p.s. - we'll see.
angiasaa wrote:
Apr. 12th, 2009 10:52 am (UTC)

p.s: you tempt me.
sepiaverse wrote:
Apr. 13th, 2009 12:56 pm (UTC)
to shut up and prove your point? ;)
angiasaa wrote:
Apr. 13th, 2009 02:24 pm (UTC)
Well, something on those lines. :) But me not gonna shut up to prove a point. or so I'm hoping. :)

I'd only really shut up if I suffered from brain-freeze. That happens a lot of late btw. :)
subtle_blues wrote:
Apr. 13th, 2009 06:59 pm (UTC)
he never shuts up :P
angiasaa wrote:
Apr. 14th, 2009 06:14 pm (UTC)
Tum bhi!? :-o

*sheds tears in the corner*