Talking slightly reluctantly to myself at what seems like random sporadic moments in my life, I find that there's no directly encountered realization of understanding or of any regular pattern in it's underlying texture.
But when I looked back at myself a moment before last week, I saw something, I saw a pattern emerging, I saw something in those twisting caverns of thought that I'd so often managed to neglect. I saw what it felt like to be wound up and spun, I saw what it was like living a life that was after all not independent of the greater whole acknowledged by the not so subtle conditioning factors whipped at us by the gathering of society and it's reforms around us.
I saw something I should have seen years ago, I saw something someone should have seen years ago. I'm not saying I'm a better person for having seen it though, it's just that it's a revolutionary thought to impact upon and wring the fabric of my mind. Courage was never a factor, bravery nor pride had anything to do with it, it was just an observance that spread itself through me due to some factors I shall so gladly withhold from the public. Having seen things for what they are, having seen things for what they just seem to be but really are'nt, having thought about it, I'm entering a phase in my life when I see things that others don't, I'm a lunatic!
I've been thinking, about life, about god, about existence, about me.... and well, I wrote a little something, It shall be on my Website soon.... Meanwhile, here's the trajectory of my thoughts.... Read, observe and absorb if you are capable, there's more to this than you think....
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Talking about ethics and morals, my last thoughts on the matter are perhaps a relative point of view. Since good and bad are relative terms, I refuse to be the judge, for an inclination toward what's right or wrong is absolutely a personal point of view. For instance, a cannibal might regard the eating of human flesh a positively good thing while we of the so called civilized world quite unanimously condemn it! Taking another example, terrorism! Terrorists believe they are acting toward a good cause while once again, most of humanity outcasts them and regard their activities as outright evil! I say the same for religion, and I expect a dialogue on this.
Religion has quite well warped the individuality of our and our future generations. I agree we've had many advances and breakthroughs due to its influence, but we've had many more mufflers placed over breakthroughs and advances both in technology as well as freedom and thinking for ones self. Nothing can be truly good as I see it, we're in a world that's oh so caught up in their own traditions and culture bubble wrapped to almost airtight thought processes. Having thought about the state of the people of the world today, I've come to the as yet un-solidified conclusion that religion today is outdated, we need a change, we need a way to move ahead and we're not moving too far ahead unless those holes are patched and newer trajectories remoulded into the fabric of culture.
I've read most of the greater religious texts of the world, translations in some cases since Hebrew, Latin, Greek, Chinese, Aztec, Hieroglyphics, Persian, Urdu and Sanskrit are'nt languages I'm extremely fluent in.... I've also read many cross-analyses of the religious texts and literature based on the same, and so far, I've found something I quite disagree with. Not that religion is wrong, or right, but because I have realized that religion came about from a need for it. The ultimate catalyst being the human longing for power over ones fellow beings as well as the longing to be able to confide in a higher, superior force to blame and confide in.
We're past the phase where religion stands true for the advancement of our world. My thoughts are open ended ones, willing to mould to and dislocate from newer ideas and / or thoughts on the matter. I believe there's a new requirement today to create a new religion, perhaps to either supplement the current varieties of religions that net around the world or to create a consciousness to free the minds of the generations to come. Life is'nt about going to heaven or hell, life is not about praying to the gods who more likely than not, don't exist and to rely totally and unreasonably upon superior and unfounded forces, but to be a better people. I say better in the light that better stands for a conscious individual who has the capability to make his own decisions, not one who lifts couplets off a sheet of papyrus to derive meaning and inspiration to motivate his being into a predefined path set by those religion makers as yet, long past dead.
If every religion were to be taken as seriously as they claim importance, it is but obvious that we'd never have been able to harness the power of the atom, we'd never even have decided that life began as a spore colony or crystalline clay, we'd never have reached a stage where the heavens (?) were conquerable, we'd still be the sons and daughters of Adam and Eve, we'd still have the universe rotating around us, we'd still have a God who needed rest after 6 days of creation, we'd still have laughter considered evil and sex pathetic, we'd never have heard of cryogenics and biochemistry, we'd actually be in quite a situation. We'd be an ordered world but one where nothing new happened and we'd be perfect according to religions dictates, but furthering our world? Never!
Interpretation of literature does'nt always mean advancement, but it's more often misinterpretation of the same that leans over us and brings upon us the forward moving world of ours today. Lingering vile tastes subdued under a shroud for ever is what we'd have achieved, but then again, do I speak for myself?
God is not a being, it's a consciousness, it's something you've created, and It never always existed. You thought it up and s/he began to exist but solely in your minds! You believe something exists and hence, you see it, what is reality? and do you wish to see it at all? If you do, then why do you obscure your own vision of it? Are we ready yet? Perhaps I'm just doing too much of the thing we refer to as wishful thinking....