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Psyche! from MCP's to Relaxation....

  • May. 29th, 2004 at 5:37 PM
Day Dreams of Love
I have oft been told, in passing or directly than men are, in terms of the general masses of them, MCP's (that's Male Chauvinist Pigs for the uninitiated!). I have never thought of myself along those terms, but over the past year or so, events and situations have re-molded my mind into understanding better, the idiosyncrasies that I've been on a heightened reception plane to observe in the last eleven years.

I've always (since as far back as I remember) been a social recluse and one to avoid active participation in virtually everything involving more than one individual at a time. This not-so-unique angle of individual reception has enabled me to be immensely sensitive to even microscopic changes and reflections in the characters that I might, in the course of my meanderings, happen to come across.

Five years ago, I drew myself into self-isolation, with the only person within a thousand mile radius who I could trust being my self. I spend day after day for four long years in isolation, doing only what was most required of me, meeting only those I had to make end meet end and link taut link. Life was mostly lived in my own mind, and I used all my suddenly freed resources analyzing my own internal schematics.

They say that in knowing oneself, one knows others. I don't agree totally with that statement, but I can quite frankly admit that in understanding my own blueprint, I have been able to wring understanding of other individuals' actions and reactions.

Little do most people realize how terribly non-complex it is to understand the inner workings of an individual apart from oneself. The self itself is constantly changing, and in learning a needle-head worth of the self, you uncover enough ground to realize that no matter how fast you work, the more you uncover, the more past-uncovered ground is changed.

In concurrence, I understand my past, but my current self and my future self are worlds apart from immediate understanding. One day will arrive when I understand to a 'T', the workings of my current self, but by then, I'll no doubt be so far ahead in my mental time-frame, there's little point in really attempting self analysis. But the again, I'm a persistent man, give me a problem that interests me, and knowing no boundaries, I'll go way past my limits just to overcome the problem. When it comes to self-analysis, I'm truly obsessed in a full-time problem that is, I understand, impossible to overcome....

But just because I see no end, does'nt make a good enough case to make me believe it's no value or use to me. It gives me sleepless nights and painful thoughts, but at the end of the day, I find a certain degree of glee that emanates from my (comparatively) minor results.

I have'nt had the chance to meet very many people from varied cultures, but I have had the good fortune to dissect numerous people of the country of my own nationality. The foreign interactions have been totally digital in their substrata, and I might add, I'm extremely capable when it comes to discerning the internal structure of an individual through online means....

There have been many people who've stared back in awe at my abilities of digital psychoanalysis. To me, it's a simple procedure, and it works in total unconscious strides. I am rarely aware of my analysis; it's something that's become an inherent characteristic of my subconscious. The key to psychoanalysis is to keep an extremely keen eye on detail and a very sensitive tab on emotional levels.

I build up a background of an individual from what I'm told. They don't have to open up for me to understand their psyche. No matter what someone says, be it the truth or an absolute lie, the point to keep in mind at all times of digital psychoanalysis is that people can't change who they integrally are.

Every word spoken, the uncertainty, the confidence, the emotion, the description, the background, the flow, everything has to be considered and evaluated on an objective scale. One has to be able to detect nano-deviations and turn-offs in the character-projection of the concerned individual.

No matter how skilled an individual, the true self can never be completely hidden. In opening with even a single line of conversation, one opens oneself to opponent scrutiny and sooner or later, the last marble clicks into place and the combination lock is opened and left so for as long as change is not absolute.

I've found that people are extremely pliable. Every individual, no mater how willful or impregnable is cursed with being impressionable. All one needs is the right co-ordinates, where to strike, how, when and with what amount of force....

The idea is to allow the person in question to coagulate their minds (this happens naturally! If you give an individual enough of a free hand with little or no external push, people tend to boil into themselves) till their natural defenses are spent. Every person carries around with them a certain aura of mental restriction. A private space that opponents are never allowed to enter unless they are acquainted to a level of closeness that reduces the jarring abrasive activity that is lethal to any attempt at impressing an action into the mind of the individual in question.

One must note that it is virtually impossible to force another into acting outside of their intentions overnight. It' a gentle conditioning that really does the trick. Varying from individual to individual, finding the right pace and the right gradient to increase, decrease, or fluctuate ones influence, depending on the psyche and the characteristics that make up the organism in question.

To be able to judge accurately, the psychological status of an individual, it is imperative that one lays a keen eye on observation; you build a character virtually from scratch every time round. I know it's supposed to be a tedious process, but it has become a default part of my sensory processes over the years, I take it for granted that people have a common base quality. We're not that much different in biological and chemical terms. Mentally though, we tend to deviate tremendously.

Analysis and constant updating of probe results is an absolute necessity since people change at quite an alarming pace.... Once you enter the individual's protective shields and have a concrete idea of them, it becomes second nature almost, to postulate conditions an situations that may or may not alter external behavior, and accurately predict their reactions to virtually any given stimuli.

When you are able to do so, circumstances and situations can be constructed in physical reality to alter their natural mental processes. The situation so created might be artificial, but the reactions are genuine. People might feel that this is a breach of morality and a deviation from accepted ethical rules, but in my opinion, it's pure science.

One might find often, that it's the ends that justify the means, but then again, it might not. It takes great concentration and requires the postulator to be adept at their analyzing skills to be able to pull such a powerful, yet sensitive game off, ending up with the desired results as well as remaining undiscovered.

Over the years, I've been able to successfully manipulate people into changing in respect to their modified surroundings, both for good as well as for evil. The evil is something I am not very comfortable talking about though they have been totally non-violent in nature, because of the ethical and moral boundaries that they have leaped over.

The main issue though, is that if the individual is left to his or her own means, without my external influence, would it have been better? The answer to that does'nt exist since we shall never know, now or in the future, how it would have turned out.... Not accurately anyway. Besides, non-influence almost always ends up being an influence in itself and in such situations, the result can be despicable!

In avoidance of that end, I usually tend to draw myself away from interaction on any plane of reference with the people who might threaten my aura directly. If contact can be minimalized, the effect is virtually eliminated. It's one of my unspoken golden rules, and since as far back as I can remember, that's the way it's been with me. It gives me the ability to actually step out of a situation and view it from a distance. A bird's eye view, encompassing a situation as well as its surroundings is better than looking at the world through a fish eye.

Coming back to what I was saying, understanding the psyche of a target individual does'nt necessarily have to mean building up their persona all the way from scratch every single time. As I've mentioned before, when I try to understand an individual, I don't start from scratch, I start with a general sketch and then fill in the details as they are experienced or as they occur.

This general sketch is actually a postulation from my own understanding of myself.... Taking into consideration, the fact that all of us are derived form a similar genetic species, Chemical and biological triggers, I assume, are similar, but hinging on subtle derivatives of the same.... Having taken virtually _ages_ to examine myself, I have begun to realize just how similar we can be on a fundamental level. But that's as far as the similarity goes. One has to understand the repercussions of past experiences on the human psyche. It's easy though, once you begin to realize all the miniscule deviations that subtle questioning and interpretation of thoughts and opinions, can unearth.

It's a tender task, and being intently aware of the cold fact that even a slight mistake today can lead to potential disasters in the future for our lab rats, one ought to move ahead slowly and with tentative steps. The most important thing that I've found in my meanderings is that with the ability to alter peoples lives like so, one really has to concentrate intently in order not to misuse ones influencing abilities....

I don't know where I'm going with all this; I don't even know why I'm saying all this infact.... All I do know for certain, is that having reflected on this, though in such haphazard a manner, a lot of you might be wondering how and to what extent you've already been influenced.... The answer lies, not in questioning the processes involved, it's in practicing what I've so far preached.... In truth, we're simply following paths.... Paths that we are free to change at any moment of space and time. It's totally unto us to go ahead and change the keys to our doors.

I've worked on people; I've delved into their minds.... And yet, the despicable shallowness of the whole entity of my thoughts of myself are as yet, unrevealed territory to my self. My own mind has bound me as its prisoner.... In understanding and helping others, I've found that I derive gleeful pleasure, but in my own backyard lies the terrors that are unknown....

Once again, I find you wondering what it was about Male Chauvinism that so inclined me into raving about like this.... In truth, it was absolutely nothing. I don't see myself as a chauvinist at all. Infact, I see myself as a theoretician of psychological behavior today. Tomorrow, I could be a manipulator, the day after I could be a potential thought-vampire and so on.... All I can say for certain is that far from Chauvinist, I'm a simple ordinary run-of-the-mill type of guy.... I've just stopped for that moment and thought about myself and the things around me. In doing so, I've stopped and thought about a whole lot of other things.

In the end, I find I know virtually everyone else for what they are and what they are doing and why. What I don't understand today, is my own self. I'm too far-gone to be reeled in and netted. But far from evolutionary strides, I'm beginning to see how effective a single nod of the head can be in impressing someone's mind into deviating from the original scheme of things. Life is but a haze of evolved nothings.... One simply has to stop and stare.... The answer will inevitably lie at your feet. If you don't move, the world certainly will....

MCP simply got my thoughts moving. It could have been anything, but for me, this was the altercation that set me into my own flavor of deviation from regular Boy Scout to irregular interpreter. If you're thinking too much already, there's just one suggestion I have for you....

Rest, the answers are coming. If you keep moving, you'll keep avoiding them, a step ahead is not a good thing when viewed from every angle available....

I've seen something in some of the people around me.... If you know what it is, don't try to hide it, but I know that you won't tell me flat on my face either. I know you will never do that. It's not in your character or personality to frank-out after stepping so far out of the hot-air-balloon.... Think about it, I know I'm not going out on a limb here, There are some things that people can see even if it's not laid out in black and white.... Even reflections in shades of gray and monochrome can be answer enough.

Life is not easy; no one said it was.... But there's crisis brewing when you begin to make use of other people's assets.... All said and done, the best thing to do is to bury those ideas and circumnavigate your mind. Don't misinterpret your mind, it's the only thing that can't tell you a lie without you knowing that it's far from so....

Relax....

Kaydeeyoh!

P.S.: My apologies for the length of this post, I was'nt looking.... :o)

Comments

(no subject) - nash_da_basher - May. 29th, 2004 09:15 am (UTC)
angiasaa wrote:
May. 29th, 2004 01:52 pm (UTC)
Re: Yeesssss!!!!
Good luck Nash, you're gonna need it.... :)
(no subject) - sharat - May. 29th, 2004 01:02 pm (UTC)
angiasaa wrote:
May. 29th, 2004 01:50 pm (UTC)
You're not alone.... Most people never reach the end of my posts.... They're just too full of junk. :)
(no subject) - yawhatever - May. 29th, 2004 08:53 pm (UTC)
angiasaa wrote:
May. 29th, 2004 09:01 pm (UTC)
Some do.... Especially when they know that all posts shall be screened.... And shall remain so till I deem the topic closed.... :)

All comments to my 'think' posts shall be by default, screened. Allowing people who wish privacy in their statements the chance to request as well as have exactly that. :) That aside, the non-asked for comments shall be screened till I close the topic so that people commenting directly to the post itself won't be influenced by the other comments on the page pertaining to the topic under discussion. :)

Kaydeeyoh!
Thanks.
(no subject) - pleaidas - May. 30th, 2004 12:59 am (UTC)
angiasaa wrote:
Jul. 11th, 2004 05:13 am (UTC)
Re: isolation
Far from off topic, you caught the nail on the head. :)

It's been a loooong time since I was last online.... I'll be a little more regular henceforth. I'd run out of net-credits and well, I just got everything back in order. Am doing my MBA now, so I'll have loads less time online, but I'll be off and on a lot more than I have been of late. :)

Incase you are worried at all about posting stuff to my journal that's off topic, you can trust me when I say nothing on my journal is offtopic if it bears even a little semblance of any subject even lightly touched upon in my posts. :)

It's strange and uncanny seeing how you interpret things. In a sense, we're very similar in our thoughts. But I'm sure we each took our own different paths and hence, are on different branches of reality. I see your point, but clumsily adhere to my own. :) Sometimes, we do illogical things and follow weird thoughts and theories.... But in the end, as long as thought is expressed the way it is, there's nothing to stop us from being just who we are. It's the greatest thing we've got!

A lovely comment,
Kaydeeyoh!
datempest wrote:
Jul. 23rd, 2004 10:12 am (UTC)
you are one of the few men I find who do not belong to MCP category. In all I think, its just the ego of a person, I am surely a feminist!
angiasaa wrote:
Jul. 23rd, 2004 10:15 am (UTC)
Perhaps I'm not, but then again, I could be fooling the world....

If you're a feminist, that's the female equivalent of an MCP. :)
subtle_blues wrote:
Mar. 26th, 2005 07:08 pm (UTC)
"My courtroom is blind to matters of sex, creed, religion, race or sexual orientation."-Philadelphia
phew...(I think I forgot where it all started)

this one's too long for any quotes.. but i'll try.

Contrary to your theory that the mind always keeps "metamorphosing" i found that "men"( by which I mean both men n women) never (almost never) change. what does change, nevertheless, is the way they present themselves. Situations, (haalat jise hum kehte hain) make them don different masks. The base however remains the same. What we strive as "observers" of the mind is try to figure out that basic character of the subject. Once done, most of the time we can even predict a person's responses. but then once you've reached that stage where the person becomes predictable you've lost all interest in him/her.

They say that in knowing oneself, one knows others.

I don't know much about that but what I do know and what I think is the inherent and basic drawback ( or fault whatever u'd call it) is that we tend( as human beings) to view others in the hew of our own self. What I mean is that we are never totally free of our prejudices. As a psychoanalyser, I'm sure you must have fought real hard to kick those inclinations away... How successfull have you been?

Life is but a haze of evolved nothings.... One simply has to stop and stare.... The answer will inevitably lie at your feet. If you don't move, the world certainly will....

well said..

Alas, Life has passed me by, while I've stopped and stared! :-)
cheerio!

p.s. next time try keeping your psyche posts simple.. U entwine a lot into one. Becomes a lil tedious to stay tuned! :-) Don't u think that's being unfair to your rather "common, non-psyche skilled" readers!
angiasaa wrote:
Mar. 31st, 2005 01:11 pm (UTC)
Re: "My courtroom is blind to matters of sex, creed, religion, race or sexual orientation."-Philadel
this one's too long for any quotes..

If you look at my first few posts, They'll not only keep you scrolling like crazy, they'll take you jumping back and forth between my journal and my friend, lihkin's journal. We'd go head to head trying to make our points and always, remain the best of buddies. :) Still, just to see the length of posts (complete with quote-commenting et al) is shocking. :o)


Contrary to your theory that the mind always keeps "metamorphosing" i found that "men"( by which I mean both men n women) never (almost never) change. what does change, nevertheless, is the way they present themselves.

Naah, That's just an opinion. On what basis did you come to that conclusion? First off, I wonder if you considered the fact that I was talking psychologically and not physiologically. DNA, voice, brain cells, blah-blah, they don't matter. To be truthful, even all those change, DNA included. But that's a different kettle of fish.

I've been watching people for years, carefully observing and cataloging every little detail so I could analyze it in isolation and in accompaniment to see how individual factors effect the greater whole.

To the unseeing eye, it looks like a deformity from personality, perhaps, even a temporary sanctum. But in actual fact, it's the pull of forces acting on and against each other. You have to delve deep into the mind to see things taking shape and you have to actually experience the tug of war first hand while performing your adjustments on an individual before you really begin to see how it works.

I can't draw a picture with my words, but I can bring about a reality that is all your own creation just by subtlety playing with trigger-memories and societical syntaxes that are buried in your mind. No, everyone has them, most of us are not aware of these grainy factors though. The reason? We have never looked into our own minds and noted those factors acting upon pre-programmed pathways that have been cut into those gray cells oh so long ago.

A great number of us believe in fiction that we are individuals and that we can think for ourselves, and we are in control of our own destiny. In all reality and fact, that's true. But in truth, how many of us actually understand the correlation with reality that stems from that fact? Believe me you, Very-very few!

We have been grown like cattle from the moment of our births, spoon-fed with societies norms, regulations, conditions, situations, experiences and it's deformed transitions over the years. What we are today is not because of what we are because of who we are but because of what we have been made into.

People don't usually instigate this teaching upon us, we learn from our environment. We are made to do things as kids, and what leeches into our minds of that experience is that all this is normal. It's ridiculous to assume that we have as much control over our own lives as we care to bequeath.

It's rare to find someone who really knows what it is that he's talking about even, half the big-wigs I know simply dictate text-book material, you show them a problem, they'll give your paragraph 12 on page 489, "General Electrical Design Problems - By some unknown Genius, Copyright 1948-67"

What I'm trying to illustrate to you is that there's virtually no originality left around here and it's people who care who really make any distinction between a backward step and a forward one.





continued....
angiasaa wrote:
Mar. 31st, 2005 01:13 pm (UTC)
Re: "My courtroom is blind to matters of sex, creed, religion, race or sexual orientation."-Philadel
....continued






The problem is that we've each begun to fear anything out of the ordinary, even if it's brilliance. We choose not to shun society and face a trial with the risk of Jail because we happen to be able to think from out of the box. Most of the people around think in a stunted journalistic manner and that's not getting anyone anywhere.

We are superstitious, we believe in God, we trust our elders, and we question nothing! Nice!

When I say people change, I'm talking about changing at the fundamental level of cognition. Personality is a second factor, but that's not really what I'm talking about at all in this post. One should'nt make that mistake. As I've mentioned often enough earlier, I talk in a metaphorical tongue. The reason is so that people of capable intellect can see beyond the "mere words" level of their (the words, I'm talking beyond semantic here.) existence.


The base however remains the same. What we strive as "observers" of the mind is try to figure out that basic character of the subject.

What you mean is not character at all. :o) The basic structure of the mind is very important of course, but it's easy to interpret another’s mind based on perceptive discretion. It describes the range of traits that function beneath the imaginary core of the human in question.

It's easier to understand if you imagine it from the point of empathy. Put yourself in the others shoes, reorganize his or her neural mesh over your own core of understanding of human base-traits, and there you have it. A small, but effective image of perceptive discretion.

Most people today cannot perform these so called "feats" of mental gymnastics. It's easy, people just don't have the patience to try. And why should they? It's a controlled world that they live in, we're slowly breeding individuality out of our species and it's for the benefit of the whole, not the survival of the fittest anymore as is quite evident around us.


once you've reached that stage where the person becomes predictable you've lost all interest in him/her.

Nope. Every little incident makes a change in an individual’s psyche. Every single incident. Even taking a step out in the sun and walking under a tree with the shadows wrapping themselves around him, it changes him forever. Most people are unable to detect the change in themselves, most people don't even realize it, most people think nothing has changed.

But for an observer who knows how his mind functions, something has indeed changed. It won't show immediately on the surface, but years later, this individual of ours, fighting the Iraqi war or something, gets shot in the stomach, his intestines are leaking out, and he wishes for that specific day when he walked out in the sun blah-blah.

It's the mind working overtime, digging up resources and not finding them. That’s how all of us work, we just absorb things differently based on previous influences. It's hard to explain the workings of the Human mind, and I don't intend on trying to either. There's no point. I can't get the point across and you won't absorb it either.


to view others in the hew of our own self. What I mean is that we are never totally free of our prejudices

What you are talking about is an overlapping of perception over interpreted stimuli. Such a situation is but easy to produce and reproduce over and over without much difference in the result. We can be free of our prejudices, but not entirely, so you are partially correct there. It's simple. You have to disentangle the mind from the brain, you see the clear overlaps of prejudice and it's easy to control.

But that's about as good as it gets, it's controllable, you can disentangle it from the data coming in and you can re-twine it as it goes out enough to virtually eliminate the problem altogether. But then, the perceptive prejudice is not really prejudice at all, it's actually preconception. That's what's really more dangerous when playing with peoples minds.






continued....
angiasaa wrote:
Mar. 31st, 2005 01:19 pm (UTC)
Re: "My courtroom is blind to matters of sex, creed, religion, race or sexual orientation."-Philadel
....continued






I'm sure you must have fought real hard to kick those inclinations away... How successfull have you been?

Nope. It was easy. Almost childishly simple in fact. And I believe I've been quite successful in that aspect. But it's not because I have a great mind or anything. It's just because I did the right thing, I followed the right course of action (all this albeit by mistake) to reach this stage so easily.


p.s. next time try keeping your psyche posts simple.. U entwine a lot into one. Becomes a lil tedious to stay tuned! :-) Don't u think that's being unfair to your rather "common, non-psyche skilled" readers!

Hmmm.... No can do. You'll find a lot of comments running through my journal. A lot of them ask me why I'm so cryptic. Open those pretty eyes, and you'll find, it's not cryptic at all. My belief is that I write this journal not for others to read as such, It's to capture myself in a capsule, forever. If one can't understand what I type, it's not supposed to be my problem at all. :o) Those that don't understand it shall never know me, those who do, they deserve it. :o)

Every statement means more than it does at face value, they mean very little taken by themselves, but put them together, read the connotations, read between the lines, delve into the subtler other hidden and reflected meanings, and one shall gain an insight into what it is that makes me tick. That's the whole point after all, is'nt it? :o)

Part of the reason for keeping this post simple was so that the psyched friends would at least understand that their minds did'nt belong to them at all.... :o) They're mine to a large extent. Still, most of my readers are slaves to the societies that they were born into.... It's not their fault, it's not mine, it's not societies, it's the interpretation of society that has done this. :o)

It's nice to know I've broken free to a large extent. There shall be others.... :o)

Kaydeeyoh!

subtle_blues wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2005 06:12 pm (UTC)
Re: "My courtroom is blind to matters of sex, creed, religion, race or sexual orientation."-Philadel
let me finish that dialogue..

judge: "My courtroom is blind to matters of sex, creed, race, religion and sexual orientation"
Defence: "With all due respect sir, We don't live in this courtroom now. Do we?"

the point being??
no clue.. I just felt like it. But it does speak a lot. doesn't it? :-)

First off, I wonder if you considered the fact that I was talking psychologically and not physiologically.

come on.. I wouldn't take the pain of reading the entire post if I hadn't a clue as to what u were talking about!! would I ?

hmmm.. u do play well with words.. some thing I am not good at. Maybe I couldn't put it in as many words but I'm basically saying the same thing as you are.. with a lil twist! When I said men almost always never change.. I meant though they keep assimilating, responding and adapting to everything in their environment their basic "structure of mind" remains the same. I'll site a case I have a grip on.. A movie, for instance like Philadelphia, evokes different emotions in diff people.( btw the movie is about a Straight Black Lawyer defending a white Gay attorney who's sacked by his law firm cause he's been tested positive for HIV... heavy stuff) What response it evokes in us is all to do with our basic "nature"..
that's one part of the story. I'm only guessing u'd have another version of it! ;-).. shoot!

The other point I was getting at was, as a rule of nature we resist change! U might call yourself very adaptive, a social animal, congenial ( i think that's the word) etc. etc. but deep down we all like to stick to our "core" selves. My dad for instance... hmm.. ok let's not talk about him now, maybe some other time.. k.. I know this man who outside his home is a great talker( impressive too), a persuasive one( he can sell noodles to the chinese!..hee hee good one.). U will never suspect that underneath that smooth talker lies a ruthlessly insulting bastard.. that side which comes into play only at home with his wife! He might meet a million people during the day.. he might have had a million moments of silent introspection.. but never once does the thought hit him that probably he was being rude to the poor woman. Even if it does come.. it's pushed aside. that's what I was talking about.. by the end of the day we come back to our original selves ( after changing a zillion times during the course of the day!)

I'm sure you must have fought real hard to kick those inclinations away... How successfull have you been?

Nope. It was easy. Almost childishly simple in fact.


the only trouble I had was not being sure of myself.. like I already told you in a previous comment, I didn't trust myself enough.. I was afraid I was judging people by my standards( some times I did do that). But now I can proudly say I have not done a bad job.. there was only one instance where I have been grossly wrong in calculating... I did pay for that mistake( I mean I really PAID..thousands probably :-)) She was the one who taught me the art of smoking btw!

My belief is that I write this journal not for others to read as such, It's to capture myself in a capsule, forever.

I respect that.. the purpose of LJ itself kinda slipped my mind. Of course it's _your_ journal. I am sorry I objected to the length( is there a less "sorrier" word than sorry.. cause I'm not really sorry but do realise I was being "stupidly nosy".)

cheerio!

p.s. u take your own sweet time to reply.. don't u? no wonder they run so Long!! he ha.. I said the L word again! :-)